God puts thing together perfectly...

cool fact...I was talking to kristy mikel about kenya. I was telling her about how weird it was that Kenya is almost here and that three years has flew by since I first felt God speaking to me about it....Kristy was my cabin leader that year at camp and now we are going on trip together! How amazing is that?! God makes me giggle sometimes at how things work out. kristy was the first person i told about Kenya and shes on my team, not as my leader, but as a team member.

Ready or not...here it comes

112 bracelets. 17 days. 408 hours. 27600 minutes.




Am I ready? yes and no. I feel discouraged. I'm ready to be there doing God's work. I'm ready to get away from life here. I'm ready to be used how God wants to use me. I'm not ready emotionally. I'm not ready physically. It feels like my body is being used as target practice right now. I'm ready for my back to heal. I want people to be excited about Kenya, but know that they can't be in the same way I am.

I'm so extremely excited beyond words. I believe that God gave me this dream for a reason. I think he has big plans. Certainly much more than I could ever do by myself. I need to stop getting dissapointed by what people are saying. God knows exactly what he is doing. I want people to understand..but they cant. I dont have a clue what I'm going to do when I come back home. I fully believe that God will speak to me and tell me what my next step is while i'm in Kenya. I feel like I'm walking blindfolded. I have no clue what's coming next. I'm tired of pressure to go to college and get a career for myself. That's not where I'm at right now. I'm fully commited to doing God's work. That might mean college later. But not right now. I feel alone and unbelonging. All friends are living lives at college. We're not at the same point in our lives. My best friends have become my parents. Never thought i'd say that. haha.

I'm ready. I'm ready for God to use me. I'm completely open for anything he has. I have zero plans, which could end in disaster or amazingness. I believe God will lead me in the right direction for what's ahead. I pray that I would quit worrying about what other people are saying. I pray that I would focus in on God. Nothing on the side. I pray that distractions would leave and that this could be one of the best experiences of my life.