Highlights of '07

Tonight...

was semi formal and it was horrible. yup pretty much. me and chels left an hour early. amber got really sick and had to leave. no one was there. friends ditched us. end of story. but ya i'm just really really bummed about semi formal and dissapointed.

A Christmas to Remember

Wow. Tonight has been absolutely amazing. I've never been so close with my family or so glad to be with them. We spent about 4 hours in the hopsital tonight together as a family and just talked. At first we were really scared because it could have been really serious but it's fine now. I cannot say enough that God will always provide. Today has made me in awe of what God can do. Medical bills are a really tough thing and expensive and we were really concerned about paying for it. Tonight a bunch of our friends helped us and we'll be able to pay a lot of those bills off. I'm absolutely amazed and in awe. Wow. I can't even explain how much God has provided for our family this christmas. Tonight we just all sat and cried together and just thanked God for how awesome he is. I'm so glad to be in my family(wow did i actually say that? haha jk jk) no but seriously God does everything for a reason. Through all the tough times we've been through the biggest lesson i've learned is just that God provides. I'm just in shock. lol. wow. I can't thank God enough for all he's done for us. We'll never forget this christmas. That's for sure.

Breaking Tradition

This isn't the christmas eve we thought it would be. My mom's port started bleeding. It might be really serious. The vein that her port is in goes straight to her heart. We're going to the ER together and we have no idea what's gonna happen. God has blessed us so much today though. People from the church have just come up to the door and handed us things. God still amazes me everytime this happens. Just pray that everything will be ok. We'll be spending our Christmas Eve in the ER.

Rihanna

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wow this is crazy!!

Celebrity Morph

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Psalm 33

Psalm 33:6-7, 9 The lord merely spoke, and the heavens were created. He breathed the word, and all the stars were born. He gave the sea its boundaries and locked the oceans in vast reservoirs. For when he spoke, the world began! It appeared at his command."

so i was just reading that and thought "wow that's absolutely amazing. only God could do something like that." haha. God created everything by speaking and breathing. No one else will ever be even a little bit close to as cool as that. lol. It just amazed me. I mean i knew that already but i read it over and over and just realized how awesome and cool God is.

It's beginning to feel a lot like christmas

We finally got our Christmas tree up 2 days ago. It's a little tiny one but it still makes it feel more like Christmas time. 4 more days of school until break!!

*Let it snow*

I was looking out my window today as it started to snow harder and harder and was just in awe of how beautiful God makes everything. It was amazing. He is the greatest artist.

Elf Yourself

funny stuff

http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1401931884

copy and paste into adress thing cause i dont know how to make a link work haha

Specific way you can pray...

hey a specific way you can pray for my mom is just for comfort right now. She's in a lot of pain since they put the port in her chest and she's just incredible sore. It's hard for her to move because that's really sore and she had an iv in her big toe (she has really bad veins so after like an hour of poking her and trying to get an iv in they finally had to try her big toe...ouch) but ya just pray that she will be in less pain and be comfortable enough to get some sleep tonight so her body will be able to heal better.

Rule #1: Life isn't fair

It's just a fact. Life isn't fair. We can't really decide what happens to us. It's not fair that my mom has to go through this. It's not fair that kids in other countries die from starving. It's not fair that a family has to loose a loved one through cancer. Life's just not fair. But no matter what happens in life things turn out by how you deal with them. "Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you handle it." I realized there 2 ways i could deal with this whole thing. I could sit around and pout and say " I hate my life. This isn't fair." But what good would that do at all? It'd do absolutely nothing. The other choice is to live my life out...seeking to find what God wants for my life and how he wants to use me. I know that God will never give me more than I can handle. I can get through this. I need to get along better w/my family. They're the only ones in the entire world that know exactly what i'm going through and they know me better than anyone else. So why do we always treat other people better than our families? Shouldn't it be the other way around? I'm slowing learning that i need to grow in my relationships w/my brother and sister and lean on them so we can do this journey together.

Boo Ya

"Be joyful because you have hope. Be patient when trouble comes, and pray at all times." Romans 12:12 boo ya. that's what i have to say about this verse :D

"Anyone who is sick should call the church's elders. They should pray for and pour oil on the person in the name of the lord. And the prayer that is said with faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will heal that person." - James 5:14-15

"Jesus said,"Dont let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust in me."" - John 14:1

"I leave you peace; my peace i give you. I do not give it to you as the world does. So don't let your hearts be troubled or afraid." - John 14 :27

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is the father who is full of mercy and all comfort. He comforts us every time we have trouble, so when others have trouble, we can comfort them with the same comfort God gives us." - 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

"With God's power working in us, God can do much, much more than anything we can ask or imagine." - Ephesians 3:20

"My God will use his wonderful riches in Christ Jesus to give you everything you need." - Phil. 4:19

"God is strong and can help you not to fall. He can bring you before his glory without any wrong in you and can give you great joy." - Jude 24

I found these verses and was so encouraged. God is so powerful and I can't even imagine what he can do. Wow that's amazing. I realized that God can heal my mom in a second if he wanted to but i think he's continually teaching me and my family through this. It's a witnessing opportunity too because we're always in the hospital meeting new people and nurses and just by having an encouraging, optomistic attitude can help them along cause it's kinda hard to be happy where everyone's sick. I really dont know what God has planned out from what i'm learning from this whole thing. Probably something amazing that i couldn't even imagine. :D


Boo ya!

Update

My mom's in the hospital at least overnight. They're putting a port in her chest tomorrow. It's like a direct entrance to a vein so she can easily get shots and antibiotic into her blood. They put it right underneath her skin surgically. So just keep praying!! We're never gonna give up hope!

When will this end?

My mom's going to the ER again. Her staff infection has gotten worse and she has more places now that it's showing up. A teacher just died from a staff infection i guess so it's kinda scary. She's not getting better. I'm kinda scared. It seems like this is never gonna end. Every time things seem to get better something else has to happen. I might have pink eye...just another thing to add on to the kaos. So now my mom might have to go back and stay in the hospital until they get it under control. This sucks. Keep praying. God it's in your hands now.

Mom's back

My mom got back from the hopsital today. She went in last tuesday and was there for almost a whole week. It's good to have her home. Someone in the church offered to pay for a new washer for us too. another answer to prayer. the one someone gave us is loud and shakes like crazy and is rusty. so just another way God has provided for my family.

I'm in better hands now...and they're the only ones i want to be in.

Natalie Grant - In Better Hands It's hard to stand on shifting sand It's hard to shine in the shadows of the night You can't be free if you don't reach for help You cant love if you dont love yourself There is hope when my faith runs out Cause I'm in better hands now It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground So take this heart of mine there's no doubt I'm in better hands now I am strong all because of you I stand in awe of every mountain that you move Oh I am changed, yesterday is gone I am safe from this moment on There's no fear when the night comes 'round I'm in better hands now It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground So take this heart of mine there's no doubt I'm in better hands now It's like the sun is shining when the rain is pouring down It's like my soul is flying though my feet are on the ground Its like the world is silent though I know it isnt true Its like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room So take this heart of mine there's no doubt I'm in better hands now I'm in better hands now

Satan seeks to destroy...God ALWAYS provides

Because my dad is a pastor i think the devil try to mess with and tear down our family. Everything just keeps building on to the situation we're in. But God has provided for everything we need. My mom's been in the hospital since last tuesday and my dad's been super stressed because he practically has to be "mom." and thats a tough role to play. He's been doing dishes, cleaning, laundry and just overwhelmed with everything going on. And he's just awesome. Earlier this week our washer broke. What else could go wrong now? haha. Me and my dad had to scoop the water out of the washer because it was just sitting there..then we had to figure out how we were gonna do our laundry. Someone in the church had a washer they were're using and just gave it to us. wow. God really provides. Meals are another huge thing that my dad has to try to think about so most of the time we just have like mac and cheese or something simple. lol. but everyone always asks what they can do for us. I think 2 sunday school classes have made a schedule and bring us supper on tues and thurs. it seems like something that we should be able to do really easily but it's one of the most difficult things for us. so having them bring us meals is absolutely amazing. pastors dont get paid much at all and my mom doesn't work so we live pay check to pay check but God always provides. Randomly people have come over and given us money when we needed it the most when we needed money for medical bills or food or clothes or stuff. It just amazes me how God works through other people and their obedience affects our lives so much! Through everything my family is going through i think satan is trying to tear us further apart. not so much working. it's bringing us closer together. we have to lean on each other to get through this and overcome this battle w/my mom's health. God never ever fails to provide when we really need something. I'm absolutely amazed by him.

Hospitals

Wow i spend a lot of time in hospitals. I just realized that tonight. Between visiting people when my dad goes to see people in the church and having my mom in the hospital i really do spend a lot of time there. Oddly enough tho i like hospitals. haha. I love sitting in the waiting room in my sweats and just hanging out and i can go see my mom whenever i feel like it. It's interesting to watch people deal with different situations in the hospital. Some people dont want to talk at all and just want to deal with it by themselves and other people get comfort from their friends and family. Other times hospitals are very frustrating. The nurses can be horrible...the doctors dont know what else to do...and they dont really seem to care a lot about the patient...probably because they have a ton of other people to take care of. haha but still. I think because when i was growing up i went to the hospital all the time to see my mom that now i'm used to it. It's just another place to be at. No big deal. Some people I see there are freaking out about their family being in the hospital...but really it's the safest and healthiest place for them to be so i dont really know how you'd be freaked out. idk. But ya just something i realized when i spent 4 hours in the hospital w/my mom tonight. And i think this is the first time i saw them like move her from the ER to a hospital room cause she's staying there over night and this nurse had a million questions to ask her and it took an hour! it was insane. so i just watched a movie. haha. so ya i'll probably go up there again tomorrow. the roads are insane tho. the drive home was a little scary. just keep praying! thats the best thing she needs right now.

Prayer is powerful...but waiting sucks

Prayer is so powerful! I know that my God can move mountains! I know that he can heal people but waiting isn't fun. It's sucks that this whole thing with my mom has been going on forever. We continually pray and hope and long for things to get better, but they dont. Atleast not yet. It's not God's timing yet i guess. My mom's gone through so much. She's in the ER again tonight. It seems normal now that she's there since shes had to go there numerous times. It's frustrating. The doctors dont know what's wrong. They dont know what to do...how to treat her..how to make her better. I wish everything was better. I wish i could do things with my mom...go to church with her...go shopping...just hang out and have fun together. But i can't. and it sucks. I can't even imagine what my mom's going through because i know how much it's affected me and my family. I wish i knew why God is putting us through this. I know he has a reason but it's just hard to see when it seems like nothing is getting better. All i can do is pray.