On fire rallies...

have absolutely been amazing and eye-opening for me. Tonight especially hit home for me. God definitely has laid 2 people on my heart. One of which i dont get along with at all. Fear definitely has gotten in the way of talking to these people. I've kinda been in a valley with God lately...feeling distant and just needing something to jump start me again. This was it. Tonight biz told us to call a person God layed on our hearts if we needed to talk to them. I wasn't at school today so i knew i needed to call her and talk to her. Tomorrow will be....exciting....nervous....making me completely lean on and trust God. trust that he will give me the words to say. trust that he will give me so much confidence and just go for it. I have nothing to lose. I'm totally ready to jump off the edge. I'm ready now.

Something else that happened tonight just uplifted me and definitely encouraged me. I went on NYGO this summer and we wrote letters to friends back home. I wrote a letter to a girl that i was very close to and was super nervous to write to. I didn't know what she'd think or what she'd say but amy said something that was so true. She said it was more important for my friends to hear about God and risk their friendship by them rejecting what i had to say than playing it safe and saying nothing while knowing their life was going downhill. So i wrote this girl...about a week after i got home i got a letter back from her. Opening it was scary and exciting. She just said Ashley i definitely needed this and im so glad you care about me and wanted to talk to me and hang out. She's come to fanning the flame yesterday and today and said to me afterwards that because of me writing her that letter that she's at church and it changed her life. woah wow i was just like....God used me to impact one of my friends lives. I never thought i could do something that would change a life. I love that girl so much and am so glad i got past the fear of rejection and losing a friend. Instead we've grown so much closer and even more important....she is madly in love with God! I know i need to get past the fear i have right now and let God work through me to impact other people's lives. Even calling my friend tonight i had no clue what to say....i totally had to stop and pray and say God i know that i need to talk to her....give me the words to say. How great is our God. Absolutely amazing. He never fails. He's always there. Caleb has impacted my life so much throughout the last few years. I can't wait for tomorrow night.